In over my head...

Today was supposedly the hottest day of the year, and I'd believe it. And of course, we got toned out right in the middle of my dinner. Stupid coal trucks. One flipped by my best friend's house. The driver was okay though. He just left one hell of a mess to clean up. Thank god for Marlboro, Diet Dew and a front-end loader. Otherwise, I might've died. I'm filthy, hot, sweaty and exhausted. I'm too old for this shit!

Plus, I barely got to see my husband which aggravates me. I just really miss him. Especially today. I just want him near me more than anything. But, he has to work. And so do I. Someone has to feed me!

My best friend goes to the OB tomorrow and then they'll schedule her ultrasound to find out the sex and make sure the baby's okay. I just hope the baby's healthy. But I really want her to have a girl. :-)

Well, I'm going to get in the shower, I'm filthy.

Listening to: "Tonight I Wanna Cry" by Keith Urban

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Tonight I'm going fishin'. I love night fishin' and that's what me, the husband and my Pa are doing. So excited. We went last Saturday night too and ended up catching eleven catfish. They were each about a foot long, so we just threw them back. But it was fun! LOL.

I'm in one of my music moods again. I'm on Wal-Mart Music Online downloading "Far Away" by Nickelback and "I Write Sins Not Tragedies" by Panic! at the Disco. I love me some Nickelback. Anyways, I need to add an iPod to my wishlist! I want one soo bad! Maybe I can find one on eBay for a steal. It'd come in handy so much! All those boring afternoons at work could be filled with my old skool and new music. Ahhh... What a nice dream to have. Maybe the husband will get me one for our anniversary or Christmas. Either way, it's like 5-6 months away, damnit.

I bought a carseat/stroller travel system today at a yard sale. Almost new, Eddie Bauer one. Paid $20. I was really excited. Now, I need to get the husband to give me some swimmers to make me a baby. LOL. Nah, the travel system is for me when I babysit my new niece or nephew (who is due Sept. 19th) and my best friend's baby (who is due Dec. 24th). I'm so excited! Babies, babies, babies. I love 'em!

Note to self: Need to buy cigarettes...

Listening to: "Far Way" by Nickelback

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Well, evidently my husband didn't miss me nearly as much as I thought he would've. I tried to jump his bones, but he's too busy playing outside in his barn. Oh well. Lord knows by the end of the night he would've been on my nerves anyways! I slept shitty last night and I've been cranky and irritable all day. Imagine that.

Now, I'm just relaxing. Just got though watching Big Brother 7: All Stars. It was okay. I would've much rather seen Dr. Will go home I think. But who knows. One thing I am sure about is that I hate Janelle. She's freakin' annoying and way too man-like to be pretty. I would've liked to seen Chicken George or Danielle get the HOH. But oh well. I know it'll probably be one of the Season 6 alliance that wins and I've came to peace with that.

One thing I haven't mentioned is that I'm going to be an aunt on or around Sept. 19th. Yay! My brother and his wife are expecting and we just had the baby shower this past Sunday. It was nice and she got a lot of things she'll need. But she's going to need so much more! I know they've still got a lot of stuff to buy. Babies are expensive. And I want one. And I thnk the husband wants one too. He's just scared. I could do it. I'd just have to quit smoking ASAP. And I would. I know a lot of people say they're going to quit and they don't but I would. Plus, the husband would drive me nuts about it if I didn't. And I'd drive myself nuts too!

I still don't have any comments on my blog. Kinda upsets me. I just want some nice normal blog friends. Anyone interested? I swear I'm clean and low maintenance! :-)

Listening to: "Two Outta Three Ain't Bad" by Meatloaf

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My God I'm bored. There's nothing to do. I reckon I could go to sleep. But listening to my Old Skool music on my computer because I'm too cheap to go buy a CD. Blllahhh. Plus, there's nothing on TV. Not even my man, Duane Lee from Dog the Bounty Hunter. This time of year, there's not much of anything on TV.

My favorites are:
1. Big Brother 7: Allstars
2. Hell's Kitchen
3. Dog the Bounty Hunter
4. That's So Raven

Normally that list would look like this during the TV season as I like to call it. When they play new episodes!
My favorite shows of all time:
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. ER
3. American Idol
4. Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
5. That's So Raven
6. Dog the Bounty Hunter

And I know there's a lot more. I watch a lot of TV sometimes. I love me some Phil of the Future too. That usually comes on before or after That's So Raven. I like Disney Channel. And they have some good movies on sometimes too. The husband makes fun of me alot, but oh well. I don't spend hours in front of the TV watching The Outdoor Channel (even though I like the fishing and four-wheelin' shows).

Okay, it's 10. I need to go to bed. I'm exhausted. And I have another full day tomorrow. Thank God it's almost Friday!

Listening to: "You're No Good" by Linda Ronstadt

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So I said I wasn't going to talk about this but I have to. I'm scared, honestly. Most things don't bother me but this does. Mostly because it's way too close to home for comfort. There was a triple homicide in my small hometown, very close to my house. Granted, I have loaded weapons. So I shouldn't be scared. Plus, I have my husband and vicious beast of a dog to protect me. The accused shooter is still on the run from the law and he could be anywhere. Anywhere. Here in my hometown or China by now. Anywhere. It's just scary. It's scary to think that this is the same hometown that at home with my parents we used to not lock the doors at night. There was no reason too. Everyone knew everyone, and everything was peachy. But now, everyone is scared shitless. I'm packin', so I'm okay. But what about my neighbors. Most of them are old, feeble people who are staying locked up in their houses because they're scared to leave. Or they don't go out after dark. Like me. I normally sit on the porch and read, have a cigarette or talk on the phone. I love being outside. Not this week though. I've cooped myself up in my house. Out of fear. Fear that some person that I don't even know might hurt me or my family. It's scary. Is that stupid? Is it stupid that I have trouble sleeping at night? Or leaving my house after dark? Or going into my laundry room? No one should have to worry about these things. But I am. Because some punk kid was stupid.

Everyday I pray that when I wake up in the morning they'll catch him. Peacefully. Lord knows I don't want to see anyone hurt, especially the police. They've all been working so hard on this case. Because they know what he's capable of. I just want him in lock down before he hurts himself or some innocent bystander.

That's really all that's on my mind. Most of that was rambling and I hope you understand. Sometimes you just have to get things off your chest. This works for me.

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Tomorrow is going to be such a long day. And I'm completely dreading it. And it's almost 10:30 and I should be in bed. Seriously, I'm not a morning person. So anyways, I'm an advertising manager. We have tons of deadlines this week and my department is just nuts. But it's always nuts this time of the month. And I hate it. Hate it! Everyone's so damn bitchy. And seriously, I care probably more than anyone does about this shit, but calm it down. I mean come on, it can't be that big of a deal. These people take it over the freakin' top. Deadlines are fun. It makes life exciting. It's that finish-line effect. I love it. I live for it. Constant drama. That's my life.

I'm really missing my husband. I sent him off to work for the night and I'm just lonely I guess. I miss him. I really do. As much as he drives me up the wall, which he does daily, I miss him terribly. I tell him all the time but I don't think he grasps how much I miss him. He's my baby. I love him so much. Plus, I sleep so much better when he's home. Maybe that's it. I'm delirious. Yah... delirious. The lack of sleep has went to my brain, I'm sure of it.

The chief called me at 3:30 at work and wanted me to go with him to the Chief's Meeting--um, no. Not gonna happen. You expect to be able to call me at 3:30 and want me at a meeting less than three hours away?! No way. Come on. Common courtesy says you should give me at least 24 hours. At least in my book. And I love those guys. The ones I know anyways. They're all so nice to me. Maybe cause I'm smart and aggressive or maybe cause I'm a chick. Or maybe because they know how much fun I am. I'd like to think all of the above but mostly, they wanna see my boobies. That's what it's always about! Just kidding, I love those fellas. They're goobers.

I'm listening to the OLDEST music ever! EVER! "Miami" by Will Smith is Old Skool man. Old skool I tell ya. I never buy CDs anymore because I mostly listen to the radio since I don't have a CD player in my vehicular mobile. I have to use my portable CD player w/ the car kit--ya, that's Old Skool too. Tell me about it, I feel queer doing that, but sometimes I need some of MY music. Not the shit the radio will play over and over and over. Bastards. New shit! New shit or at least something you haven't played in the last 45-50 minutes. Jim-n-nee...

I'm going to bed. I'm too tired for this shit. And if that pager goes off tonight I'm gonna be pissed. But I'll go. Just won't be happy about it!

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So here's my little dream boat for the week... or day. :-)

Isn't he hot? My God he's freakin' delicious! And can you imagine him in turn-out gear. Mmm... just too tasty.

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It's another boring night. No runs. No visitors. No nothing. Just me and my TV. And my husband. At least till 8pm. Then my other boyfriend arrives. Well, not really. Just Duane Lee from Dog the Bounty Hunter. Yea. He's hot. I'd do him.

:-)

Anywho, I'm off to watch Big Brother.

I need some friends? Anyone up for it out there? Leave a comment!

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